Dim Lighting

The more time I spend on social media and around people I interact with every day, the more it seems to dim my light.

I just looked at some snapchat stories and let me tell you there was so much negativity. Marriage isn't sacred anymore, there are no more good days, and people are becoming more selfish. How can we be happy living in a world where we are surrounded by negativity?

Recently my days have been starting with God conversations. There's nothing special about them, they are just conversations with God that start the minute I wake up a end right before I fall asleep. These little conversations have made my attitude so much better than normal. I feel overly happy almost every hour of the day. It's not that nothing bad or upsetting has happened, it's just that when those things do happen, I'm able to push through them and I know that everything will be ok and it will all work out.

Today was different. I normally want to just do my job and have fun with my coworkers doing it (while not having to deal with customers), but every coworker I interacted with today had negativity coming out of their mouth. I tried my hardest not to jump on their rants with them about other coworkers and join them in the constant complaining, but when it surrounded me, it consumed me. I was so heart broken by the realization that I am surrounded by negativity at work so I just fell silent the rest of my shift.

Then I was slammed by another wave when a car I found wouldn't work out again so I have to keep up the search. Defeated. Then I headed to the chiropractor where I hoped to hear some good quick fix to the financial problems I'm having and yet again, no quick fix. Just more time and patience (which is difficult in this situation--hello six months of more than twice a week care). Defeated another time.

My light had been dimmed, so much in the course of a few hours. Then I remembered that lights dim not only down, but up to. There was no miracle word that snapped me back, but a choice. I made the choice to seek God and the truths He has given me. The truth that He will never give me more than I can handle. Especially when He's there. See all I needed to do was look for the switch and let it turn my light back on. Slowly, but eventually it got a little brighter.

What in your life has you feeling like your light is not as bright as it was? Is it something you can control or do you just have to look for the switch?

Be Still And Know

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